I'm back. I've been back for 5 days and life has returned to normal, rural Illinois life in the beginning of summer. I've 2 ½ weeks off before I start counseling at a summer camp so am finding and catching up on sleep. Jet lag has hit me hard! I find myself awake at 2 or 3 am and then sleep all day. I can't function! It stinks. My sister's couch has become my temporary napping place where I find myself spending more and more time falling asleep and staying that way for a good portion of the day. Oh, it's fun…

As expected, I feel very inadequate and almost useless. Along with my lack of energy, I'm no longer doing something every day…I'm not traveling two hours to Trudy's house or going to the church to work with Dave. I am no longer cooking a dinner for 12 people and no longer share a room with 3 other girls. I've basically been holed up in my house sleeping for the past five days, not seeing other people…especially those to minister to. I almost can't wait for the busyness of summer camp to start so I am able to minister to younger girls…to start relationships built on Christ and am able to minister to them morning, noon and night. I can't wait to be used again J

I have discovered that, even though life has gone on without me here in Walnut, it's not much different. In a way, that's a relief…but it makes me kind of stir-crazy. I've seen parts of the world others here can only dream about. What's my purpose of coming back here? Why did God lead me here? Yes, I missed my family and friends INCREDIBLY and I LOVE being with them…but what am I to do? Oh, golly. I'm just rambling now.